I want to walk as a child of the Light

We discovered a new hiking trail less than a mile from our house tonight. It was a stunning evening hike, and the kids insisted on leading the way. Rory and I were amazed at how able they each are now. It really is a wonder to watch children become independent, strong and able.

I didn't know at the time, but while we were taking this glorious little hike, my dear friend Mama J passed away after a warrior-like fight with cancer. As we walked down this lush path under a canopy of changing leaves, Mama J was breathing her last.  I am grieved beyond words. At the moment I just feel numb. Strangely that picture above is bringing me great comfort. I love that beam of light pouring down to earth. I believe heaven's glory is more than we can ever fathom. And no matter the darkness or sorrow we experience on our own path, God's light will always fill the darkness. Every time.

I believe that in my heart. Now I have to rest in that promise.

All evening I have had a hymn stuck in my head. The words are ringing like a bell.  Knowing how profoundly Mama J impacted my life, I am left wanting to be sure I shine Christ's light just as bright as she did. No matter how many or how few days I have left of my own. 


I want to follow Jesus.
God set the stars to give light to the world;
The star of my life is Jesus.

In Him there is no darkness at all;
The night and the day are both alike.
The Lamb is the light of the city of God;
Shine in my heart, Lord Jesus.

I want to see the brightness of God;
I want to look at Jesus.
Clear Son of righteousness, shine on my path,
And show me the way to the Father.

I'm looking for the coming of Christ;
I want to be with Jesus.
When we have run with patience the race;
We shall know the joy of Jesus.

In Him there is no darkness at all;
The night and the day are both alike.
The Lamb is the light of the city of God;
Shine in my heart Lord Jesus.


Unknown said...

Oh Becca, We're so sorry for your loss and so thankful she was such an important part of your life! What an amazing family. May God hold all of you in his arms.
Love, Mom and Dad

annika said...

This is beautiful - your reflections, the picture of light, the song you put in my head today. Love you, Sis.

sarah in the woods said...

I love that picture! Praying you will be comforted by the light and hope of Christ.

Nancy Holte said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Momma J. Losing a mentor and friend is so very hard. Praying for you and her family.

where the hart is said...

So sorry to hear of her passing. Those pictures are absolutely stunning and I love that you made the connection with being a child of the Light.
And Becca, you most definitely shine Christ's light brightly. You impact others more than you know. Even those who just read your blog from hundreds of miles away! :)
Sending love and prayers to you!